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WHY

why am I the one
to always get yelled at?
why am I the one to hurt so much
inside and no one...
can figure it out?

maybe I get yelled at
cause people....
like to yell at me.
maybe I hurt so deep inside
cause I have been hurt
to much by people.

why am I pushed aside?
why am I denied from people?

maybe I'm pushed a side
cause no one wants
to listen to me.
maybe I get denied simply
cause of my own stupidity.

why am I the one
to always messing up?

maybe I mess up
to get noticed.
I always ask myself
"WHY WHY WHY"?
my mind is so confused
I don't even know what
I did to deserve all of this.

maybe I am better off dead
but thn I think
I don't want to die yet.

VALERIE ENTWISTLE

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why do I put myself through pain?
why aren't my friends
never there for me?
why does it seem
that the ones I love die?
why.....why
.......why...me?

why does it seem
all the bad things
...happen to me?
why it seems like
I shouldn't be living.
why should I be living
...right now,
it seems like I have
nothing to live for.
why does it seem
my friends are using me?
why do guys
want me for sex?
WHY ME?

should i put myself
....through pain
should my friends
never be there for me
should all the
bad things happen
...to me
should the ones
I love never die
should I not be living
should my friends use me
should I let guys
use me for sex
should I not let out my anger
and all my pain
and just keep it bottled
...up deep inside.

VALERIE ENTWISTLE

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NO TITLE

Not a day goes by that
I don't think of you.
I always think of you
everyday and everynight.
I wish You didn't have
to leave me magic
I love you so much
......it hurts.
I cry myself to sleep
evernight looking
at your pictures
and thinking about all
the good times...
we shared together.
You are my baby magic
and you always will be.
People tell me
to let you go
but I can't I love you
to much....
to let you go.
I wish I could have taken
you to the vet
but I didn't,
If I would have you
might be alive today.
People don't understand
how much you mean
....to me.
I know in time
I will have to let you go
but it will
hurt like hell.
You died such a horrible way
but at least
I was there when
you took your last breath,
I was holding you
....in my arms
as you took your last breath
and I was crying so much
no one....
could calm me down.
When you died
it felt like...
a knife stabbing me
right in th heart,
that is the pain
I feel inside..
but no one understands.

This poem is in loving memory
of my cat Magic
my Beloved Kitty.

A lil word to Magic
up above me
Magic I will always
and forever miss you
and love you

VALERIE ENTWISTLE

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ME

There's a kid inside me
whose Dying to get out
There's a woman Inside me
who no one knows about

There's a romantic there
who loves satin and lace
There's a loner somewhere
who's got a sad face

There's a dareDevil Here
who loves to have fun
There's a hard worker
who tries to get things done

All of these people
Are Inside of me
They are who I am
My Personality

VALERIE ENTWISTLE

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ESCAPE FROM REALITY

Isn't there a place
...I can go?
Far away from here,
Where I can
Find peace and love
and nothing troubles me.
Where everyone loves me
for who I am,
and welcomes me
with open arms.
Is There...
such a place on earth?
Will you show me
...the way?
This is the place
I long to be,
Far away from reality.

VALERIE ENWISTLE